How Do You Even Sabbath

This is a short, random post for two reasons:
1) I'm still getting the hang of how even you write blog posts
2) I'm still getting the hang of actually writing and publishing blog posts.
3) I feel the desperate urge to accomplish something.

So, I've been trying something new. Something crazy. Something entirely outside my personality. I've been starting practicing the Sabbath.

Great, right?

No.

Something I inherited from my mother is the compelling, desperate need to accomplish. We both harbor the unfortunate fear that we don't like to admit, which is that we're afraid of basically failing. At least, that's for me. I want to be a great writer. (Like, Maggie Stiefvater good. That's basically my lifelong goal and then I think I'd be pretty content with myself and my life.) I want to be a great friend. I want to be a great daughter of God. Most days, I feel like I'm failing in every single area so far mentioned. This isn't so bad, though. It's kinda my engine. I am run by this, reading a chapter of The Dream Thieves, realizing how far behind I am from this inhuman writer and going and writing desperately because I failed to get 2,000 words like planned the day before and need to today (I have also a horrible habit of procrastinating, which is kinda the struggle I run into with my ambitions...) I work. Procrastinate. Work harder. Procrastinate a little more. It's a vicious, endless cycle, but it's okay, because when I feel stressed out, the answer basically every time for me to get rid of that stress is simply to get at work.

Then, there are Saturdays.

Saturdays. This is my break day. This is the day where I set everything aside, and I say the horrid words, "Today I am going to have no goals and just do whatever activity I happen to feel like."

I can't stand it. Taking a break, however, does, in fact, make you more efficient for the rest of the week. It's good to have time where you slow down and just rest. We need it. It was so important to God that He demonstrated it for us in Himself. If God is trying to make a point that we need a break by taking one Himself, when He's all-powerful, it must mean something. I know this. And, I know God is working through me in this. He's teaching me not to be run by an engine of fear, to put my trust in him, and to really just relax. Normally, I can accept this. Today, this Saturday, for whatever reason, maybe it was the six or seven hours of sleep I got last night (and the night before...) in effect of being both a determined writer and a procrastinator, I am panicking tonight.

Therefore, as I am an anti-social child whose friends are either asleep or on a plane from Central America, you all get to hear the glories of my rant.

How do you even Sabbath.

Truthfully, I don't get it.

This post is also my way of saying, "Hi, I'm trying to get out of my confused little hole where I don't know how to write a blog post and just rant and see if this is casual enough for what is required in this thing called blogging." I also feel the desperate need to accomplish something. And I am panicking about how I just haven't. So this is my accomplishment, and you all get to be a part of it. Yay!

Anyhow, so, another blogging thing I have seen spreading around is this question thing at the end. I ask, you comment, so let's see how it goes.

How do you deal with stress? How do you accomplish things? Are breaks easy or hard for you? Do you like pie? Are you a fan of Inception? Are you very bored in your life right now? 
(Look, I think I just blogged like normal bloggers. Or something. Or got close. Whatever, I shall just maintain the hope that you all will love the strange child I am. This is my first personal post.... it's been weird. Ciao.)